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Then Kelly took a few steps, reached down, and snapped the radio off.

  Waited for the whirr of the CD player and pressed Play.

  The latest from 50 Cent belched out into the night, crickets gone silent, unhappy.

  “Sorry, Pat.” Kelly lowered the volume to adjust for the music. “Just not in the mood for jazz.”

  He sat down amid the beats and single-track sample. Took a sip of water, biceps bulging reflexively as he brought the bottle to his waiting lips. He kicked his legs up onto another chair, adjusted his boxer shorts, and raised his eyes to the sky.

  “Jenna took off,” Patrick offered.

  “Yeah, her father’s car …”

  “Her pop’s a good guy.”

  Kelly nodded. “Sure is.”

  “What time is it, anyway?”

  “ Eleven-forty, last I checked.”

  Patrick nodded. Not that he really cared. The day had been a long one, with or without the aid of Father Time. And here he was, sitting with Kelly McDermott, watching the stars while 50 Cent let them have a tiny taste of the thug life.

  “Kelly?”

  Kelly kept his eyes skyward. “Yeah?”

  “Have I congratulated you yet?”

  “Huh?”

  “On OSU? Have I said, you know, actually said, congratulations?”

  Kelly thought about it. “Don’t bother … not till you get your letter.”

  Patrick didn’t budge one way or another. Decided maybe a different approach would serve them best, and asked: “Were you this certain you’d get your letter?”

  “Well, no sense in pretending anymore …” Kelly rocked his head left and right, cracked his neck, and straightened out. “I was accepted to OSU way back in the fall.”

  Patrick didn’t say anything.

  “I mean, you knew, Patrick,” Kelly insisted. “When we went to visit and they had me work out with their team. Didn’t have another way to make the final check, what with the NC season pushed back to spring…. So yeah, they offered it to me. So did Florida State, Michigan, a couple others. Had to keep it quiet, of course, but … I mean, who do you really think got me that new car?”

  Patrick felt a twinge of jealousy. “I guess I knew you knew. I just didn’t realize just how you knew it was all going to work out.”

  “Well …” Kelly shrugged, though not in any dismissive way. He took another swig of water, relishing the purity. “The world was made for people like me. It doesn’t matter what I do, what I say. Why do I get a car, while you get wait-listed? Nobody gets extra credit for guessing the sun’s going to come up tomorrow, that’s just how things have been fashioned. There’s a Kelly-shaped hole in the universe that needs to be filled, that’s been hollowed out specifically for me to fill…. It’s like floating on an inner tube down the rapids, I am already there. It’s just plain old run-of-the-mill destiny.”

  Patrick reached out and grabbed Kelly’s water from the table. “Sounds nice.”

  “It’s not as though I like it, Pat. It is what it is.”

  “Destiny.”

  “And you’re coming with,” Kelly insisted. “It may not be fair, the way the world bends toward certain people. But as long as it does, there’s no sense in letting the opportunities slip by. I’m going places, and I want you there with me. You’re going to be there with me, Pat. We’ll make headlines.”

  “Has Jenna gotten her letter yet?”

  Kelly didn’t answer.

  “You going to marry her, someday?” Patrick asked.

  Kelly waved his hand before his face. “You sound like an old bitch nagging.”

  “I’d marry her if I were you,” Patrick said. He stood up, tried to take a pull of water. Found less than a drop left in Kelly’s bottle, and that was that. “I’d wise up and marry her fast.”

  “Before what?” Kelly asked.

  “Before she wises up and realizes she just might have a choice.”

  It was close as Patrick ever came to cracking on Kelly.

  Kelly’s reaction was a quick laugh as he stood up. Turned his chair around to better face the backyard, catch sight of all that was waiting in the dark. “We’re all going to be just fine, Patrick…. You’ll see.”

  Patrick didn’t answer.

  He turned, opened the back door, and paused.

  Patrick took a look back, one of those moments. Maybe it was that these days were numbered, moments where it felt as though life was quietly stalking them one by one. Moments Kelly would dismiss as weakness, and so Patrick kept his mouth shut.

  Though he did look back, maybe because it was one of those moments. He took a look back at Kelly, sitting with his back to the floodlights, awaiting his destiny.

  One last look before closing the door on tonight.

  That last look, last glimpse of the young Kelly McDermott before tonight became yesterday, and tomorrow turned to today.

  is eyes opened, and for a moment, Patrick didn’t know where he was.

  He blinked his way out of sleep, let reality tighten its grip as the guest room came into focus. Antiquated floral patterns along the walls, framed paintings that hadn’t made the cut for any of the important rooms. White lace curtains, complete with delicate patterns sewn into the near-translucent material. A desk, easy chair, dresser, miniature bookcase; all of which had lost their jobs around the house to updated versions of themselves.

  From somewhere nearby, Patrick heard a door slam.

  He grunted and stretched his toes, heard them crack under the stiff sheets.

  Felt as though he should piss.

  Patrick stepped out of the guest bedroom and into the hallway, down to the end, only to find light emanating from beneath the closed bathroom door. He changed his bearing toward the adjacent doorway, poking his head into Kelly’s room.

  Lil’ Kim, 50 Cent, T.I., Eminem, and an oversized Jimi Hendrix stared down at Kelly’s bed from the rectangle walls of their poster prisons. The purple/blue comforter lay in the middle of the room, crumpled and confused on the off-white carpet. A pair of black panties hung from a nearby chair, awaiting Jenna’s long overdue return.

  Patrick glanced back to the bathroom, saw a pair of stilted shadows from under the crack.

  “Getting some juice,” Patrick announced, words aimed through the door.

  “Patrick?” Kelly’s muffled voice sounded oddly cautious.

  “Yeah. Getting some OJ. You want anything? I could cook up some eggs.”

  No answer.

  Patrick shrugged.

  He took slow steps down the stairs, bare feet making sticky, smacking sounds on the polished wood beneath. Down another hallway and into the kitchen, where gray morning light robbed the room of depth, shone dully off the white counter-tops.

  Glancing out the windows, Patrick saw the stereo stuck on the deck. He scampered out onto the damp wood, already hot in anticipation of another broiling day. Collected the radio and returned it to the kitchen, wiping the soles of his feet clean on the indoor mat.

  Patrick opened the door to the fridge, procured some Tropicana Pure Premium. Poured a hefty helping and guzzled it down, all the while staring blankly out the window. A jazz bass line, compliments of Paul Chambers, did loops through his head. He hummed along through his nose, paying close attention to how the notes changed as his stomach grew in circumference.

  Patrick set the empty glass down, smacking his lips.

  He wiped some crud from the corner of his eye, blinked.

  OK, now he definitely had to piss.

  Patrick jogged up the stairs and was once again confronted with a closed door between him and much-needed relief. He didn’t want to bother, but his options were few; the downstairs was broken, and Kelly’s parents never left town without locking their room.

  Good times all around.

  He sighed, fist raised and at the ready for a little knock-knock action, when the door opened. Opened hard, practically swinging off its hinges, enough force to make Patrick jump at the sight of Kelly’s body filling the entran
ce.

  In the ensuing silence, Patrick went from believing he’d done something wrong to simply wondering what could possibly be wrong. Kelly’s eyes were wide. Wide with what, exactly—surprise, amazement, bewildered fear, perhaps all of the above—that would have to wait. Patrick was more alarmed that Kelly should be in the grip of any of those emotions. It was the unspoken urgency of it all, the way Kelly stood poised with one hand on the door frame, the other fast on the knob. There was also the glaring detail that Kelly, fond of sleeping in the buff, hadn’t bothered to cover up before heading to the bathroom.

  Letting it all hang out, just standing there in his birthday suit.

  Patrick found his voice, coughed. “Everything all right, Kelly?”

  Kelly looked as though he was actually considering the question. Not so much considering, it was more than that. He narrowed his stare, leaned close toward his best friend’s mouth, as though wondering if Patrick had even asked the question.

  And Patrick thought maybe it was worth repeating: “Everything all right—”

  “Patrick?”

  A fairly simple question, although the uncertainty in Kelly’s eyes, the honesty of the inquiry, left Patrick at a loss. Unable to answer, and for a moment, it seemed as though nothing would happen unless Patrick did. All the makings of an endless staring contest, but then …

  “Patrick!” Kelly announced, answering his previous question with a delighted cry. He took Patrick by the shoulders, looked him up and down. Marveling at the sight of his best friend, Kelly then yanked roughly, pulling Patrick into a massive embrace.

  Patrick’s body went stiff. Playing possum as Kelly used his superior build to rock them back and forth in what felt like an extremely inappropriate slow dance. Kelly didn’t seem to notice, and he rubbed his hands against Patrick’s back, pulled away just in time to get his hands around Patrick’s head.

  Once again, Patrick remained still as could be, some primal instinct insisting his head was about to be ripped right clear from his shoulders. No worries, though. Kelly merely grinned, pressed his forehead against Patrick’s, and let out a rapid, breathless rasp.

  “Look at you, Patrick,” Kelly whispered.

  Kelly stepped back once more, gave Patrick yet another once-over. “Look at you! Look at you, you … look … aces!”

  Patrick was trying to figure out which one of them was still dreaming when Kelly began to laugh. Slow and uncertain, as though trying it out for the first time. Truth be told, it was the first time Patrick had heard this particular sound coming from Kelly. It was pure, giddy, and, under different circumstances, it might have been contagious.

  Time being, Patrick remained unable to even speak as Kelly brushed past him.

  The laughter continued, rising and falling on the back of invisible waves, as Kelly reached out to touch the hallway walls. Fingertips exploring with light strokes, as though checking for wet paint, Kelly made his way to the stairs, where he broke into a sudden trot. Down, down, down he went, thunderous footfalls rattling the house.

  Patrick watched this mad dash, finally finding his voice: “You want anything, Kelly …? I could … cook up some eggs, I guess.”

  We’ve already done that, Patrick’s angels reminded him.

  Patrick took the stairs two at a time, leaped past the last five.

  He ran into the kitchen.

  Glanced left, then right; caught sight of Kelly’s ass disappearing through the doorway to the den.

  When Patrick caught up with him, Kelly was walking around the extensive, L-shaped couch, fingers stroking the brown leather, bare feet brushing along the gray carpet. Patrick watched from the doorway, debating whether to descend those four steps into the den. Kelly glided alongside the large glass table stationed between the couch and the flat-screen TV. He didn’t bend down, didn’t try touching this time; just moved his hands far above the transparent surface, as though preparing for the final act of a magic trick.

  He paused. Cocked his head to the side, listening … “Huh.”

  “Hey, Kelly …,” Patrick ventured, heading down the steps. “I know I asked this a couple of whenevers ago, but … is everything all—”

  “This …,” Kelly interrupted, trailed off momentarily before resurfacing. “This is, I mean this room. Here, right? This is where we had that Christmas party, way back when….” Kelly glanced up, over to Patrick. “Right? My parents …” Kelly squinted. “My parents threw this kind of joint Christmas party, their friends in the kitchen, our friends in here. They let everyone get wasted, and, well … I mean, my parents were always drunks, they must have gotten …” Kelly’s certainty seemed to be fading. “Wasn’t this the place, Patrick? You, me, and Jenna stayed up past the dial, just talking, way back when, wasn’t it?”

  Despite knowing the story all too well, Patrick was having a hard time following. “Way back when, Kelly, I don’t … I mean, that was just this past Christmas.” Patrick walked over to a set of sliding glass doors leading out to the top of the driveway and innocuously drew the blinds. Long strips of plastic swayed in dissonant motion, rattled quietly against each other. “We’re talking a few months here, if that, Kelly …”

  Kelly’s eyes widened, remembering something…. “Jenna.”

  “Well, you, me, and Jenna, sure—”

  “Is Jenna still around?”

  Patrick felt a bit more comfortable fielding this one. “She took off last night, remember?”

  “Last night?”

  “Last night, yes. Before today, if I’m not mistaken.”

  And now a lightbulb popped above Kelly’s head. “Paper.”

  “What’s … what are you—”

  “We get the paper, right?” Kelly climbed over the sofa, plodded toward Patrick. “The Verona Something-or-other, right?”

  Patrick gave himself room to back up. “Yeah, Verona Observer, what’s the big deal …”

  Kelly didn’t have too much vested in Patrick’s sentence, and he took off once again. Up the four steps, and through the kitchen.

  Patrick might have stayed put this time if he hadn’t immediately sensed where this was all heading. Leaping into the kitchen, following his gut toward the front hallway, he saw Kelly at the far end, frantically undoing the brass locks on the front door.

  “Kelly!” Patrick cried out, several seconds too late. The door was jerked open with wrenching sounds of protest from the unaccustomed paint job. “Nobody goes out through the front door!”

  Oh, his angels nudged him as Kelly burst out the screen door. And there’s the fact that he’s running bare-ass naked out into the street at seven-thirty in the morning.

  Patrick turned back, rushed through the kitchen, catapulted himself over the steps leading down into the den. Hit the ground running, right arm reaching out and snatching a quilted blanket from the back of the couch. Legs pumping, Patrick smacked into the glass doorway, cutting through the plastic blinds in search of the lock, hands fumbling.

  He got it, slid the door open, and tore through the blinds, hitting an immediate right.

  Scattered twigs and acorns dug sharply into his bare feet, only a few wild steps taken down the sloping driveway before Patrick came to a scampering halt.

  There, at the entrance to the street, stood Kelly.

  Unfurled early edition held high over his head. Waving the ink back and forth, grinning like the first North Carolinian to actually win the Powerball. Unconcerned with his naked state, even as a few neighbors stepped out onto their lawns to watch the spectacle, coffee mugs trapped in a holding pattern just below confused lips.

  “It’s May!” he cried out, lifting his left leg and hopping around in a demented circle. “It’s Thursday, May fifteenth! May fifteenth, two thousand motherfucking eight!” He paused, as though waiting for Patrick to react. When he got nothing, Kelly simply added: “AD!” before coming out with a long, booming laugh, not a shred of dignity as he returned to his outlandish jig.

  And as a result, it was Patrick who noticed the
car pulling up, not Kelly.

  It was Patrick who felt his stomach turn at the sight of red and blue lights coming to life.

  The halting whoop of a siren, almost undetectable beneath Kelly’s hysterical peals of laughter.

  It was Patrick who broke out of his trance, running toward Kelly as the patrol car pulled to the curb, and a pair of uniformed officers stepped out, already reaching for their cuffs.

  All this, apparently, on the morning of May fifteenth, two thousand motherfucking eight.

  s far as Patrick was concerned, there were three types of police officers: the kind who had better things to do, the kind who had nothing better to do, and the third bowl of porridge, which was always just right.

  The two officers in Kelly’s kitchen were of the first order. While both their features varied slightly—from age to eye color, build to facial hair—their attitude made them fraternal twins. It didn’t matter that they had just started their shift, aftershave and deodorant still fresh under matching uniforms. It was of little importance that Patrick had shown them the utmost respect. Even with a naked Kelly McDermott, now thoroughly under wraps as he sat at the kitchen table, this pair of policemen was already watching the clock. Uninterested eyes floating about like overfed manatees; both had pulled out matching citation booklets, pens, and yet neither bothered putting one to the other. It was as though they hadn’t even found the energy to agree on which one would be faking any interest in the situation.

  And Patrick couldn’t have been happier about it.

  What would have ordinarily offended the slight sense of civic pride he had, Patrick now welcomed as a brilliant bit of luck. After all, these two had better things to do. A couple of little white lies, seasoned with a dash of big fat ones, and everything would turn out just fine.

  “So.” The mustached officer absently picked at his bristles. “You have a history of sleepwalking, Kelly?”

  “I’m not sure …” Kelly’s earlier excitement had abated, though none of it seemed to be out of respect for the situation. He remained with the paper clutched in his arms, blanket wrapped snugly around him. Tousled blond hair covering eyes that glanced over in Patrick’s direction. “Do I have a history of sleepwalking?”